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lyrics
i'm still shaking from the aftermath
vie gone from the ash to ash
its got me thinking so
i hit the blunt and pass it back
should probably stay and crash here
but im too trashed to ask her
so i put her to sleep and leave
and grab my keys and dash
night got me fuckin smashed
speeding home fast as i can
i feel so faraway
seems tho my home is at hand
but its too late to stop this home isn't another option
i should've thought this through i never stop to take precautions
i can't find the sun
i miss my mother
she can't find her son
sister can't find her brother
i can't find the sun
i miss my father
he can't find his son
why would he even bother
he's walking towards the window
i tell myself i'm fine
not much i can remember
coming up with only lies
flashlights got me blinded like a cataract
last time i'm gonna see the sun till i get back
i write this rhyme
getting ready for a cold december
hoping something so distressing
will finally make me better
i'll have to wait forever
to see this whole thing through
you can't predict the weather
you can only hold your truths
feeling like a psychopath
sitting in this jail cell
mama's trying to hide her tears
papa's waving farewell
i see no destination
walking up this stairwell
maybe i've lost my way
maybe i'm a werewolf
i wish my mama happy birthday from a telephone
trying to act strong as i sit under this telescope
wish i could fall asleep miss you like you'll never know
hope you're thinking bout me too, but it'd be better if you don't
im choking on my words, papa don't be disappointed
i know you have my back, you taught me that these are my choices
i think i'm hearing voices, making this story seem pointless
i'm always giving in, this whiskey was my fucking poison
i wish she had my back
i know this changes things
i wish i didn't want her back
wish i was a braver being
i wish i never left
i should've stayed instead
i wish i would have thought this through
but maybe there's a reason to this
suicide story
credits
released September 3, 2014
Produced by The Alchemist
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